New Asylum

Esther was not liking the asylum she was in at first. She wasn't allowed to do anything and she was starting to get shock treatment which she didn't like at all. Her friend offered to pay for her to go to a new asylum because she once was in an asylum. Esther accepts the offer of going to a new asylum and starts packing. When she gets to the new asylum she automatically loves it and thinks it looks like a fancy clubhouse. There are different sports that you are allowed to play all around the asylum like golf or other sports. Esther also has a lot more freedom than she ever did at the old asylum. For example she is allowed to go out for walks and can also leave her room whenever she wants unlike at the old asylum. Esther is also allowed to go into town if she starts to show improvement, which will be like she is not even at an asylum. Esther is a lot better off being at this new asylum because she doesn't have to feel like a prisoner all day everyday. I also believe this will help her get better unlike being at the old asylum. 

What is wrong with Esther?

There are a few different things wrong with Esther. Esther has a mental disability and is put into an asylum. The people there don't understand what is wrong with her and start to believe that something really isn't wrong. The people there don't help her out at all and it starts to make Esther feel upset because she is not getting any better. Everyday Esther feels the same and doesn't know what to do with her life. This is a big contributer to why Esther wants to kill herself. Another reason why she wants to kill herself is because she finds killing herself a noble thing to do. She doesn't think of anything being wrong with the fact of killing yourself. Esther is also very lonely because she doesn't really have anyone in her life to get her through this tough time in her life. Maybe if she had someone to help her get through this rough time in her life things would be a lot easier for her and she wouldn't want to kill herself. These are some of the reasons why Esther wants to kill herself, there could be more behind it, but these are the reasons I believe she wants to. 

Dr. Gordon

Esther is very sick in her head, but she doesn't realize that anything is wrong with her. He mom send her to Dr. Gordon who helps mentally ill people with their problems. Esther doesn't like him because she doesn't believe that anything is wrong with her. She thinks that she is perfectly fine. She also doesn't believe that Dr. Gordon is helping her at all because she doesn't think anything is wrong with her in the first place. She tries and stops seeing Dr. Gordon, but when she does this all that happens is that her metal illness is getting worse. I believe that if he believed that Dr. Gordon could help her and she accepted the fact that something was truly wrong with her that Dr. Gordon could help her. This isn't going to happen though because Esther doesn't believe that anything is wrong with her. When she doesn't think that anything is wrong with her this triggers everything to go wrong in her head and it just gets worse and worse. If Esther didn't refuse everything her mother says and that Dr. Gordon says she could be healed.

Returning From Boston

When Esther arrives home from Boston she seems very depressed and doesn't know what to do with her life. She seems to be very bored and very lethargic. She doesn't do or go anywhere for awhile, all she does is just sit at home and do nothing. Esther doesn't feel like doing anything and she also doesn't go out and hangout with people or anything social. After awhile a phone rings and it is her friend Jody. While on the phone with Jody we find out that she doesn't get the job and this is why Esther is so down and a part pooper. Marco could have had an effect on her because he was very rude and inconsiderate to her. This did not help to the fact that she already didn't get her job and then she had Marco being very mean. Esther is not very happy with her life and she doesn't know what to do. After awhile she thinks of stuff she can do but all she can think of is maybe going to Germany for a little and trying to learn the language. She is not very sure what she wants to do and this could all be because of not getting the job and Marco being very mean to her. 

Chapters 7-8

In chapters 7-8 Esther is very unhappy about the way women are looked at by other men around the world. Men are allowed to have sex with as many women as they want and are still looked at as being "pure" to other women. This is totally different for women, if a woman has sex with more than one man she is looked at as being not worthy and not very "pure" at all. This really frustrates Esther because she finds it crazy and absurd that men have the right to do whatever they want and women can"t. She doesn't see the difference between a man having the right to be "pure" whenever he has sex, but a woman can't. When Esther finally meets Constantin she wants to have sex with him because she thinks she can actually be worthy to him. When  she meets up with him she thinks that he will try and get with her, but he does the exact opposite from that. When they get together they just hold hands and Esther says this is the happiest moment of her life. Due to Constantin not trying to have sex with her she is very shocked. I find this very interesting because the guys in this novel seem to only seek out for that kind of things. 

First sentence in The Bell Jar

In the first line of The Bell Jar the line talks about the main character Esther and about the Rosenburgs executions. The main character Esther is a very confused character and is very offended by the fact that the Rosenburgs are getting executed. When you read the first sentence of the novel at first I was not sure by the meaning, but after I re read it over again I put things together and realized that Esther is a very sensitive and confused girl and does not know what she wants in life. This is what i took from the first sentence of the novel and I know this is a short blog but I dont know what else to write about. 

Character decision that reflects the 1950's

In the movie Mona Lisa Smile Betty follows everything that she is suppose to do and thinks the role that women play in society is the way to go. In the movie Betty makes a decision where she makes her husband read a poem that he doesn't want to read. Betty doesn't care at first, but when she talks to her mom about it her mom gets furious and tells Betty that she needs to make her husband read that poem. Betty listens to her mom and talks her husband into reading the poem. Her husband reads the poem, which is Betty's favorite poem. The poem is suppose to show how he feels about Betty, but because he is being forced to read it, it shows that there is not real love between the two of them. This is how it was in the 1950's, everything had to go a certain way and people got married just for the heck of it even if there was not true love between the couple. The 1950's were seen to be the perfect time, but in reality it was just a society run by tradition and not but true love. 

Portraying the 1950's

In the film Mona Lisa Smile we see how the 1950's was portrayed. In the 1950's women were expected to do everything for the men. Woman started to go to school, but once they found a boyfriend and eventually got married they were expected to drop out of school and be a stay at home mom. They were expected to work at home all day while the man was at work and then when the man came home she was suppose to make dinner and others things for him. Everything also seemed perfect in the 1950's. People acted like everything was how it was suppose to be, but under it all people were not as happy as their appearance looked. The 1950's was also portrayed as a black and white society. Everything was boring and was suppose to go a certain way and if you didn't follow that way you were looked upon as a sinner and different. The 1950's may have been portrayed as the perfect ideal time in life, but really underneath it all everyone had their own problems and life was not as perfect as it was put out to be.